Im leils

1) Lose alot of weight- im planning on loosing somewhere between 10-20 pounds by the end of the summer. because many people (especially guys) told me i have everything and i mean everything except i would be loved more if i was a bit skinner and i agree 100% with them. And no i dont take that as an insult i take it as advice and a suggestion and i will follow that. My plan is to jog or run twice a day, swimming,KARATE (it builds cardio and muscles ;D)  soccer practice( i need to be in shape for that 2mile run i know i can do it)

2) Be more confident and less shy around people- Yes there are people that im extremely nervous around and its time for me too gain some confidence because ive been told and i have seen that if i am more confident and comfortable around people and with myself…people wouldn’t be so mean to me and be like wow shes amazing and stuff ( i know thats kinda strange but its true xD) more people will be nicer to me and they will know who i truly am the funny caring nice girl i am :)

3) Ignore what people say- I need to become less gullible and not listen to what every freakin person says to me because it just causes drama for me and it causes drama for my friends who never said anything and they would never say that. It could end up hurting me badly.

4) Study more- i need to be more on top of my work than i have ever been cuz these last four years really decide where i go in my future. And be on facebook less. Its like a freakin weapon it kills your life.

5) Be tougher- both physically and mentally, stand up for myself and defend myself at harsh times and not let any bitch get to me.

6) tell that certain person how i truly feel about him and what ive been keeping bottled up inside me <333

why, because so many people are leaving me :(….so sad i finally decide to stay in paramus because i wanna spend just four more years with certain people and make new friends and people are fucking moving its sooo sad. but yay NO MORE MIDDLE SCHOOL IT FUCKING SUCKED MAJOR ASS!!! I HATE IT SOO MUCH YOU HAVVE NO IDEA! Some people are just so annoying they dont know how much i wanna punch them in the fucking mouth like just shut up seriously so freakin loud and abnoxious just stop screaming and shouting. omfg one girl during graduation wouldnt stop shouting peoples names she was hurting my ears like for the sake of them shut up woman. well i did at least become closer to some girls and guys and i realized who are really my friends and who arent just by telling how someone signed my yearbook like if they meant what they said and shit. but yeah its over and now im a freshman…goodbye middle school and hello phs freshman year <3 :) i hope its really good cuz i heard its the best four years of your freakin life <3333

I dont wanna feel like a stalker lol but i realllyy love your tumblr posts they like legit describe my life and other peoples i just felt like saying that because every day when you post a new post it like makes me think the same way about certain people and your pretty as well- i really hope you see this post <3 you are really awesome and you should be an author or a writer cuz damnit you can write :D!

I hate eastbrook. and just about a week left not even some days arent even real days like tomorrow is pool day, thursday is the dance, and then mondays graduation. we have like no school left. And im just gonna enjoy this last week without any drama girls in my life ill just pretend they dont exist. I have a life and i made new friends on tuesday and im hoping this summer i become closer too them with soccer and my besties from florida the whole summer so i dont need these bitches. i have a life and they arent in it so yeah.

i hate hate most of the girls in my grade that go to eastbrook well actually its two girls that make it seem like 100 cuz everyones one their side or they make people think that. Well this bitch…told me a certain guy im really close to hates me and i asked him and he said he doesnt hate me and i told him everything and he said that he hates them now and i hope he tells them in front of me. i hate people. why cant people just be all friends and stop talking about eachother come on people its just one freakin week left and its the fun week dance, party, poolday graduation people are supposed to be becoming friends again not arguing over a retarded guy that starts shit no one needs that cant we all just get along.

so i told you something i hadnt told anyone ever and now i think your mad at me or your done with me. im afraid that you will tell your stupid friends. if you do i will kill myself im not joking. this is something that is not to be told to a soul. I dont think you will because we have been chatting and doing things together that people dont know of and yeah you never told anyone about that but i expect the same. its just really annoying if other people find out things and start bothering me.

People suddenly think that if a girl is laughing or talking to a guy that its “flirting”. Well im sorry for laughing at his jokes. and talking to him. When did that become such a bad thing. You shouldn’t be talking you do the same thing but even worse at least i dont hang with a ton of guys every second i can. Cuz there is only one guy in my heart right now and i dont need that.

again with the formspring. I hate it. I got rid of mine for a reason and now people think that im writing anonymously and pretending to be me. Someone wrote on someone elses that i wanted to go out with a certain guy. But seriously i dont like him like that just as a friend i have someone else on my mind btw and i never wrote any of it to him.

I hate when people make their statuses something thats totally obvious like OH its hot outside or tomorrow we have school. Um yeah we do you dont need to post that 100 times its not doing something good for everyone so just keep it to yourself. You dont need to clog my newsfeeds with that shit. Oh and i hate when people post those ten second videos to eachother and clog my home page on facebook with them no one wants to here you say eww i look gross. Why the fuck did you make a video if you look gross and you cant just write on eachothers walls soo annoyyyingg! aggghhh